Spam
July 1, 2015 - April 29, 2026
(1a)
Google Docs open
Writing poem
Fucker listening to goreshit
Tabs open inon Chrome
YouTube
Last.fm Music Profile
Oshawott (Pokémon) Bulbapedia
Messenger Facebook
So you don't know how to write
A poem well that is too
Sad cuz I ain't helping
You figure it out your
Self fucking gibberish
Cheater cheater
Pants ablaze
Technology........SUCKS
Hey fuck this
I'm going out to restaurant
Its name is Chez Monyou
Would you like to come
Or would you like to stay
Wait hold
On
What the fuck is that
Is that a
Demon from Hell
Question mark
I feel dizzy
I'm about to pass out
Wee were all dead
Top Gun Maverick
Jan Hammer
Crockett's Theme
Versus Madis Nightwalk
(Live Cover)
Honor Him slash We Are Now Free [...]
(3)
The news came in today that I'm still not
making a progress in trying to regain my
focus on the things I need to get past over
and now my whole life is at a whole new
low in terms of my mental health when it
comes to psychology and sociology over
these last few years thanks to my own
restrained life choices and this is really all
I have left at this point.
It's simply all these thoughts that count,
don't they?
(4)
once i turn on the oven
BAM! - an electric spark
and it all goes out in an instant
i try to explain it to my sister
she keeps flubbing my words
no wonder why i'm pissed off at you
then i text to my dad
he calls me
tells me to start studying already
and now i get to be told off
why can't i just fucking listen?
all of this is an order
what feels like a chore
a simple task that i can do
but i still rest on this lumpy bed
and now i wish for all the people to die
all over many a stupid reason
and after all my years of being tormented
being dragged around like a voodoo doll
feeling like i'm a nobody
a total fucking loser
a pathetic ne'er-do-well
a literal manchild
a black sheep in society
whatever the fuck
there's no way out of this madness i created
it's problem after problem
all for nobody's sake
and now i turn around
and see myself in the mirror
regretting every single life decision i made
i wish i could fix what i broke
i refuse to let it go
it's not over
i don't care
it's the only thing i want
(5)
Motherfucker the wind is still blowing
I really dont know whats up with the weather today
And okay yup theres a thunder
My weak point
Im like pretty sure its going at a 100 miles per hour doesnt it
Its so weird cuz like it has about weeks ago
And i was terrified for the life of me
It was going to strike down on our house any minute now
Like holy shit calm down
Why are you so vicious
Its too much for me
Im like such a baby still
I was just about to play ambient music on spotify
But i guess i have to throw in the towel for now
(6)
HOT MELT GLUE GUN!!!!
...... wait why is it 'hot melt' now? strange..
you mean you cant use that shit for longer periods of time until melts into fucking glue or smth??
am i missing a puzzle piece at this point
where do you even find those things
,, ho you mean Devin Townsend Devlab, that album no one likes apparently? ..cool
i dont know why you even referenced some odd album from the 00's
you couldve told me firsthand
now im thinking how can a fucking glue gun be hot melt like im sorry whaaat????
-isnt it strange im not even trying to comprehend how shit even works hahah
..?
yeah also i failed my history exam, goddammit
i was supposed to fix it to get to 11 but now i cannot anymore
fuckk
this is literally the wORST FUCKING YEAR OF MY LIFE !!!!!!!!
yeesh, i need some fucking rest
hhh..
(7)
~If you're Daft Punk, then I'm deadmau5~
Your sounds make me go fluster
But your masks keep me in the shadows
~BACK INTO REAL LIFE WE GO TOGETHER~
(8)
Only the strangest things can
Eradicate what i have made because
Im the only one who still has
All the fucking power to turn
You all into mush
Saucerful, it must be a miraculous velocity!
(2)
Only here to binge
And embrace the cringe
Never was a big fan
Otherwise I'll never stand
All the bloated fringe
(1c)
[...] 8 PM August 29th 2022
Staring at computer
Google Docs still open
Tabs
Category Oshawott
Poems 2008 present
Work in progress
Jack in the Box album Wikipedia
Listens on Spotify
Car Seat Headrest
Kimochi Warui
(When)
Repeat 73 times
Goodbye forever
Closing doors
BAM
(9)
I'm the fool of the world,
bigger than another oneself.
A shadow of my former self,
I'm not as strong as I thought.
The many things I said in the past
keep coming back to taunt me.
All that I said because I wanted to,
because I thought that it was right,
and I had any reason for it.
Now I honestly wish I hadn't,
because they make me look like a fool.
Many an unconscious decision,
because I didn't know any better.
(8a)
y'know why they do?
cuz they're not as
stupid as you think
they are, yet you
think you're immune
from the people's
many stupidities
and think the world
only revolves around
broken bottles
and smelly rat poop
(10)
save yourself that penny for the ferryman
or prepare to suffer along with the others
you will never
cut me up
because you will
never make it out alive
and the hills from far far away will lead you to...
The Elvenpath
(8b)
It's been over year
since I've laid my eyes upon you,
and now I'm wondering
if I was ever obsessed with you.
[...]
trash pals
or shit pals
I guess you still keep consuming that trash
The people still keep giving to you.
But is that stuff any good for you?
You'll probably die within a few years or so.
At least I tried to warn you.
(11)
Why Cat in Heels: The Final Desire is a True Masterpiece
you've never SEEN true beauty, this is it!
our buddies have done it AGAIN! this is a film we never asked for but WANTED!
the amount of work and passion that went into it is simply DELICATE!
it shall not go understated, not even ONCE!
this is a movie you MUST go and see for yourself! you do NOT want to miss it!
11 out of 10, bitch!
(12)
sleepy sleepy
falling into sleep mode
i haven't really had much sleep last night
so could you please put something on
i'm about to fall asleep
real nice comfort
just need only 10 hours of sleep
otherwise i'll wake up on the wrong side of the bed
(13)
OH MY GOD I LITERALLY HAVE ONLY 19 HOURS TO PREPARE MYSELF FOR THIS CRAP WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW???
come on now just calm down and breathe deeply there's no need to worry everything will be alright
WHY ARE YOU TELLING ME THIS JUST NOW COULDN'T YOU HAVE HELPED ME EARLIER OR SOMETHING????
hey you were the one who didn't message me at all during summer you could have told me to help you
GEE WELL THANKS SO MUCH NOW I'M SO FUCKING DOOMED FOR THE LIFE OF ME I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!!!!!
jesus christ
(-2)
Sometimes...
I'm a little anxious,
and I can't concentrate on my homework.
(-1)
Sometimes...
I feel
as if I have devoured
lots of french fries.
(14)
Sometimes...
the world does not keep on giving enough.
No more of what I ever held onto,
what I held too dear to my heart.
(0)
I don't know
what to do.
I don't know
what to say.
I don't know
where to go.
I know nothing...
Nothing...
(15)
0-9 Abigail Angelica Anikó Aphex Avicii Bandicoot Barnabus Biggie Brandon Brother C-3PO Catto Caddicarus Charmx Chibi Crash Daniel Destiny Dildo Donald Eevee Eeyore Emily Evelyn Farfetch'd FijiWiji Flashbulb Forbidden Gaster Gibi Goblin Granddad Hannah Hayseed Hecox Howell IHE Isabelle Iscream Jiminy Justin Kale Kelly Kuzco Lavender LEMMiNO Lů0 Mathematics Maze-ing Máté McNugget Montana Narwhal Nepotism *NSYNC Nutshack Obama Ohio Ontario OPN Padilla Pamela Penis Potato Q*bert Quesadilla Quinoa Randy Redacted Rhett Rogers Sesame Shaq Simba Smosh Susan Tangerine Tater Tim Transgender Umbrella Urine Vendetta Vlog Vsauce WALL-E Weebl Xavier Xexi Xylophone Yak Yander Yeezy Yolkster Zander Zizzle Zombie Zzz
i hope i guessed your name right...now WHERE'S MY 100 BUCKS
(16)
well into the room
i am prospering
about the future
and letting these
translucent bits
of air particles
flow through me
inside the room
where there is no
breathing space
there is always
a lot of me that
has no flaw
regardless of
what i thought
i was doing
away from you
(17)
only i don't know
what lies beneath
the world doesn't tell
so passionless
to the end
and nothing seems
to make sense anymore
so i guess
i have no choice
to make on my own
if all i do
is prosper
then nothing
will come to me
no one to help me
(19)
Piece o' paper
with the piece o' gold
that I threw away
just for nothin'...
I don't know what compels me
just to have a piece o' digital note?
(20)
it's sad
that i know
that it's sad
that certain people
tend to feel
certain emotions
and it's sad
that i know
that it's sad
that certain people
do not know
certain empathy
towards other people
(18)
Endless.
The weight is endless.
It pulls me down
from time to time.
It pulls me away
from this position.
And it doesn't stop.
I keep on going down
further and further.
I keep on going
until I reach a point
where I'm no longer
this shell of what I used to be.