Elder Dilemma

July 29, 2024

Why is it that

if I still feel weary

after waking up

and not say

"Good Morning"

to my grandmother

she already feels

so let down

and disappointed?

Maybe I'm just

an asshole.

Maybe I can't

speak my mind.

Maybe I have no idea

what choice I should make.

Maybe I simply

forget things.

Not every day

is a bright day.

Not even I'm

confident enough

to believe that

I'm going to make it.

Because I already know

I'm at fault

for not saying anything

and not behave accordingly.

To have the strength

to say and do something

is a tough wall to break,

even at the expense

of throwing myself away

and expect other people

to feel bad for me.

It's no one's problem

but mine alone.